a white hollow-core elephant

When I graduated from college, David, his family, and my family flew out to Tucson to help me move. Everyone helped with the packing, then my parents headed on a plane to San Francisco and Dave's parents and sisters drove back to San Diego while David and I planned our nimble heist. We were abducting my 7-foot-long, 3-foot-wide wooden thesis model out of the College of Architecture gallery and into our rented U-Haul in the middle of the night, even though it was scheduled to remain on display for the next few months (for the upcoming accreditation visit, or something important like that, because I had promised a few people I'd donate it to the school). But I'd obviously changed my mind, because I remember walking into the gallery that night and thinking that it was going to be a cold day in hell if I ever let this beast out of my sight. This was the sole object of my attention during my senior year. I worked on it devotedly and lovingly, obsessively and fanatically, sometimes with discipline and sometimes with reckless impulse, but always with fierce loyalty.

I am a bit of a nut, no? To be so deeply attached to a hollow-core door.

Nonetheless, we packed it carefully into our truck and hauled it safely to San Diego, and soon after I was reprimanded by the college for my act of theft. While I was away in San Francisco that week with my parents, David somehow single-handedly managed to mount it on our wall, 11 feet off the ground. I don't like thinking or talking about this feat that he is so ridiculously proud of, because I can guarantee you he was (more than once) thisclose to dropping it or breaking off a limb (the model's, not his) because he was probably performing this feat on one leg while peeling a banana and trying to dip it in a jar of Laura Scudder's chunky peanut butter. That's just how bizarre the boy is when no one is watching.

Anyhow, this grand pièce de résistance has been proudly hanging on our loft wall for 4 years now, a symbol of my priorities as an architect and an impassioned distillation of how I view the built environment. And sometimes it just looks so sexy, casting leggy afternoon shadows on our wall.

I came home early yesterday with a debilitating headache and laid down on our couch. We are moving soon (to Michigan, for grad school) and have been discussing the details of this 2400-mile maneuver. The simple fact is that we will need to part with much of what we own, and I know David hasn't dared to mention my thesis model because he doesn't want to upset me by suggesting that it shouldn't make the move. Well, Dave, I haven't mentioned this white hollow-core elephant either, because up until yesterday afternoon, I was convinced we were going to take it with us.

But I think you and I both know that we are evolving into something else now, because as I stare at it hanging so impressively above our lovely space, I feel it has served its purpose.

i've never said this out loud before...

There have been a lot of questions lately about why David and I are headed to art school. For a few people (and that includes David and myself), it seems to make a lot of sense. We don't even have to explain; there is a knowing look, a confirmation, a nod that can only mean, "Yeah, I get you." But for the most part, David and I have been breaking out the allegorical speech, which, now in it's thirty-seventh iteration, is pretty damn good. Although it is a bit heavy on the logic (my opinion), it outlines our future interdisciplinary practice as the impetus for heading into Metals (Dave) and Ceramics (myself). Which is all very true. Yes, we want our work to shift comfortably between scales. Yes, we like furniture. Yes, we want to manufacture products. It all makes so much damn sense.

But there are some points that, for one reason or another (perhaps too tender to put into words?), we never seem to say out loud. So I thought I'd make them known-- right here, right now.

1 Because we don't know what to expect. Seriously, we have no clue.

2 Because we are beguiled by artists (and maybe even a little intimidated). If I ever ended up in an elevator with Donald Judd or Rebecca Horn (and thank god there will never be a situation where I would have to converse with both of them simultaneously), it would be way more than I could handle. I'd be unable to interact. Maybe David would say to Rebecca, "Your work is so graceful and lonely," or ask Donald why his Robertson heads at the Chinati aren't precisely aligned-- because David is brave like that-- but really, David, what would we say?

3 To deeply know our chosen materials. I bet it's a lot like getting married. You say, "I want to know all there is to know about you, and I don't care if sometimes you're ugly on the outside, because I bet you're always pretty on the inside."

4 To make. We are weary from toiling over paper, from the slow and compromising implementation of ideas, from watching projects fade and fall. Dave swears he is slowly being post-tensioned into the shape of a question mark. We want to stretch our arms, gather in material, and implement a shunt from our head to our fists. We want to (and I am borrowing from a wonderful professor of mine here) "work like bandits," charged by the energy of our hands.

5 To do something else. I don't claim to know much about Architecture (notice the capital A), although I think I know enough to get a simple building from paper to Certificate of Occupancy. So really, when David and I started talking about grad school and what it would mean to us professionally and personally (not a big difference there, really), we found that our fundamental questions could only be answered in an environment where a. everyone was a wizard at what they did, b. we had access to tools and materials we'd never had the chance to tinker with before, c. our learning processes would not be so linear, and d. for once, we weren't in the midst of so many architects. This narrowed our options down quite a bit, but in all honesty, the answer was Cranbrook from the start.

6 Because it's going to be so much fun.

take the story of carpenter mike
dropped his tools and his keys and left
and headed out as far as he could
past the cities and gated neighborhoods
he slept ‘neath the stars
wrote down what he dreamt
and he built a machine
for no one to see
then took flight,
first light



(don potts + calexico)